Growing in the Lord & Walking in the Spirit

Anger is a sensitive topic. The Lord has been angry before. In fact, Jesus knocked over the tables in the temple in his anger. But, my anger is not that holy anger because it is often for selfish reasons, and I express it in the worst way. But, this article is talking about how I deal with it. I know that anger is a problem I need to fix, but it is better to have some self-control with the anger while coming up with a solution for how to stop getting angry. So, this is how I do it.  Based on the last article, I clearly get angry often enough that it is a problem. And, sometimes I will hold all the emotion in the bottom of my heart and never let it out. Yet I hate it when someone strikes a nerve and it all explodes- all my problems are dumped on one person whether they are the root of the problem or not.  So, a better way to deal with it is to express it to someone who won't get hurt, or care at all: my journal. I journal every once and a while but I like to journal to remember...

I'll never have it all figured out. Every time I think my walk with God is going well or that I am doing alright, He will point out to me how I need to change to be more like the woman He wants me to be. The problem is, I have a perfect image in my head of exactly who I think I should become and who I think God wants me to be, but then I don't put in the work to make it happen (not because I am lazy but because I forget to work on it) and my idea of who God wants me to be for sure is not me.  It was pointed out to me how well American's here. I am still freaking out about paying for college but I know the Lord will take care of me. I am living with a roof over my head- and it has airconditioning too. I have had food to eat for all of my meals today, and even some snacks too! I am blessed beyond measure with even more than the tangible things I have in my life right now. The Lord has helped me survive some situations that I could have died in. The Lord has given me amazing ...

My relaxing time in the evenings really does seem to clear my mind, and get me thinking all at the same time. Here we go:  When this all started- when the deaths of men by police really caught the news this year- I was really not on any side. If I had to choose one, I am not sure what I would do. I would join the protestors because what was done was wrong, but I would not because I was sure that not all police are like that. And if I have not mentioned it enough, I hate that police only get negative attention. No one ever recognizes them for all the good they do for this country.  But, it has really gotten me thinking. People have made claims like "You have to choose a side" or "You can't be in-between" and while I agree with that, and I am on the #BLM side in all reality, I think these thoughts need to be mentioned. Yes, I was sheltered as a child and my parents kept me pretty sheltered still. But, when all of this happened people were accusing you of being rac...

I was thinking to myself last night and so many thoughts started building up in my mind and I want to share them with you. The condition of the USA right now has really been on my mind for the past few weeks. Even though I have been all over the world and seen so many different places and cultures, I never knew that racism still existed for the Blacks here. (I read an article that explained that most Blacks want to be called that, so if that bothers you I am sorry.) People are making rash comments in my opinion at the same time as they may be exactly what this world- and I- needed to here. One of which is "If you are not racist you are anti-racist." Pretty much, you need to choose a side. By doing nothing you are saying what side you are on. While I have not participated in riots or rallies, I have not signed anything, and I have not donated money or time because I'm poor in both of those areas, it hurts my heart to hear that this is a real problem that many Blacks have t...