Skip to main content

Reflecting Reflection

I’ve been thinking a lot about how I have been thinking a lot. I know that many people have pointed out that I’m good at reflecting. I think that I would have said that about myself before others pointed it out but I didn’t. So then I feel like I need to give others credit for teaching me this. Another aspect that I do know is that I always called this skill “overthinking,” which I viewed as negative. Is it the same thing? How is it different? How can I teach or help others to be reflective but not overthinking? Do I even know how to do it? I know I shared in my testimony yesterday so I’ve been thinking a lot about it that in my teen years when an adult I looked up to told me that I did something wrong I was always first angry, then I came to the same conclusion. Were they ever wrong? How did I get to this point?


As I am brain dumping (and it doesn’t feel like overthinking anymore) I realized today as Olivia read on her own that I used to isolate just to journal in my younger years too. What made me do that? How did I come to find comfort in solace? Is that why I’m single…because I CAN find comfort in solace? It’s things like these that make me question whether I’m an extrovert or not. I love spending time with people that care about me, but I alway reflect (or overthink) how things went afterward, and that’s where I have really grown my character. 


But how? It’s not me who can really grow me. It’s God. Sometimes I definitely do overthink. I mull over details of a picture I can’t completely see. I think I grew a ton in high school by going adults in benefit of the doubt. Yet, I’m still quick to judge people. Am I harsh on myself? Do I hold myself to high or reasonable standards? In most things I know I don’t have low standards. Unless people are shutting up about something that feels like a low standard to me. I hope that the trustee people in my life will say something when they can tell I’m dropping in who I am or what standards I hold myself to. 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Extremes

My friend and I were talking towards the beginning of May, and we both came to the same conclusion- it seems that in almost all circumstances, Satan works in the extremes. Let me elaborate on some specific examples. Eight extremes, so four topics, have been brought to my attention on this matter. Yet, I know that there are probably unlimited more examples.   Politics:  Christians even seem to think that if you are not one party, or you are another party from them, you can't be saved. For example, it seems that most Christians think that the Republican party is the correct party. Some even claim "If Jesus was here [in the flesh] on earth, he would be a Republican." or "Democrats [because right now these are the two extremes in politics in America] cannot be saved because everything that the Democrats stand for goes against the Bible!" The biggest problem with those statements is that they are putting politics to the extremes. There is nothing perfect about the De...
Post a Comment
Read more

In My Weakness

I am a missionary teacher. I have been for about a year now. I am moving to a new school this year where I will be working with new students that I will need to get to know. New school policies that might not match what I have gotten used to. New staff, bosses, and co-workers that will have new personalities compared to who I have worked with in the past. There will be many more stories that life lesson to share in the future, I am sure. But, today I wanted to focus in on something that God has been teaching me. He has been reminding me that in my weakness, He is strong.  As a missionary teacher, I am reaching out to other churches and individuals to see if they could support me financially (as my position is not paid) and if they could pray for me. This has led to amazing opportunities of encouragement for both parties as we are able to share together in the life that God has given us to use for His glory. It also has allowed me to get more comfortable talking to a group of adults...
Post a Comment
Read more

How to Disagree Well

Recently, I attended a seminar that talked about how to disagree well. This does not mean how to make your case. This does not mean how to allow people to step all over you either, though. This seminar helped paint the clear picture that how you chose to respond to the speaker and your presuppositions coming into the 'argument' both play a big part in how you will choose to 'argue' with the 'opponent'. Here is what I got from it:  It's important to understand that our culture and family of origin affect why we have our beliefs, instead of just the Bible.  -Do you want to be right, or do you want to influence and be influenced? Do you want to be right or be happy?  -Can you see the bigger picture? There is always a greater narrative. If you can see that, you can learn to disagree well.  -Do you value the person with whom you are interacting with? "To live well with others before God." -Vanhooser. We need to live well with people and get along as muc...
Post a Comment
Read more